What's Going On?

Hey lovelies! I am having the toughest time ever, and I really do need to vent a little.

So, for starters, I've finished my first semester of my second year in college. I'm doing a BA degree in special education and learning disablities (in case you really had no idea) and exams are just a huge pain. I feel like I hardly have any time management skills at all, and no matter what I ask my uncle (who is a life-coach!) where I look online - I just can't find a system or tips that really work for me!

I'm seriously starting to get really depressed. My (now ex)boyfriend broke up with me a few days before Valentine's Day because he realized, after six months, that he doesn't actually love me - and frankly, I do agree that I'm better off with him. But it still blows. I just can't help but wonder if it's just me that's not good for other people, or if something's wrong with me - or that it really is that all men are stupid and need a brain transplant STAT. Ugh.

I've been having issues with my roommate too. We started the year off as really good friends and I really do still like her - but for the past few months things just went downhill. It started when I started seeing my ex (I guess she, like everyone else I know, really did not like him. At all) and we just got in petty fights and arguments. Living with her was just like hell. BUT! (luckily yes, there's a huge but right there!) When I told her I'm no longer with my ex, the atmosphere around the apartment was lighter again. We communicate again. We talk. We actually laugh and enjoy eachother's company.

I've been letting my blog go a lot, but I think it just added more pressure to me than fun, and I really didn't need another stress factor. I will try to write more, post more, review more and just get my thoughts together. I really do believe writing, even if no one reads it at all, is therapeutic. It's like having a diary (as in "dear diary", not like an agenda or whatever) only I guess sometimes people read it.

My addiction to make up and other beuty related stuff really kept me happy though. I got a whole lot of new products I still haven't reviewed and I need to, and I have a day or two that I let myself "off" - just to relax and do things that aren't study-related (although I do have a test coming up next week, but whatevs. I feel that if I start studying 4-5 I actually do it a lot more effectively. I think I might do a time-management post, too. Just to share, you know.)

Maybe if I'll be more active on the blogsphere I won't sit and mope around as much, as I'll have somthing to occupy myself with - like a hobby.

I'd love to know what you guys are feeling right now, and if you've got any tips or advice for me and for others who feel like me (but just don't share it with the enitre world like I do. I'm weird like that).

I'll start working on some new posts now!

Love always,
Shir.

Oops!

Oh jeez, I hate how I always get so caught up in things and I just completely forget anything else!

I totally neglected my poor, poor blog! :(

Anyways, I figure I might as well have a little "review" on whatever's been going on in my life. (And it might bring me some inner-peace as well, I feel like I have a huge mess in my head!)

So here goes.

I started my second year (out of 3) at college. I'm doing a B.A degree in special education and learning disabilities, and I did not(!) expect this year to be so hectic! I have papers due, like, every goddamned day, tons of homework, lots of practical work in a youth-at-risk high school, and this semester's finals are coming up and I'm just trying to catch my breath and relax. Stressed out much?

I have a new boyfriend (yay!). We've been together for nearly 2 months now (and believe me, it's a huge accomplishment for me - I usually dump 'em after about a month.) and I absolutely adore him! He's the best ever! He's flying to South America for 5 months on February 29th, which sucks beyond words - but we'll manage. He's a year younger than me, we met while I was still doing my service in the Israeli army (about 2-3 years ago) and I've never been happier. He's the best ever!

I haven't done a lot of makeup purchases lately, but I've been doing lots of cool looks with it - I just never have time to take pictures before classes - but I'll try harder. I promise!!!

On a different note- I'm reading "A Clockwork Orange" at the moment and I'm having mixed feelings about it: on one hand I think that this book is extremely difficult to read - content wise - but on the other hand it's a freakin' masterpiece. And also, coming from a future educator's perspective, I think it describes the vicious, mallicious circle modern western society has got itself involved with but no one really does anything about it all. Bleh.

Anyways, I need to go study, study, study!
I'll do my best to update my blog more (with more pictures and all!)

Have a Merry Christmass, Happy Hannukah and the greatest new year ever!